Trying To Do Too Much?

I do the Mommy juggle. I have three small children, all under 4. The twins have a drop-off preschool three days a week and a co-op preschool the other two days (we just started that and I don't even really know how much time it will entail for me - even though they spell it all out, it seems like there is always "just ONE more little tiny thing...").

I have recently employed a part-time nanny for my 16 month old, but I try to spend as much time with her as possible - after all, she is my LAST baby... plus, I often try, when it is just the baby and me, to pretend that she is my only child and I have the utmost freedom. An illusion, I know, but a relaxing one at times. Then I try to make it all fair. Having all that one-one-one time with the baby means that I feel guilty for all the time I spend away from the twins and even when I'm with them it is almost always with both of them or all three of them.

So I am trying to do things with my twins individually..

I take my daughter to ballet and an outing afterwards once a week; I am still working on something special for my son, but he is always happy to just go do anything on his own with me - a walk, an ice cream, whatever. My kids do swim lessons, ballet, and soccer. I am co-president of my twins club. I make dinner (not so good at that one), do the laundry, pay the bills, clean and organize the house constantly all day long. I get a pedicure and my hair done every few months, maybe have a meal or two here and there when I can swing it, follow as much reality TV as I can (BTW - I think the final 2 in BB8 are a great duo AND Survivor:China starts next week, hooray!), enagage in blogging, read the news and good novels - you know, all important stuff. Oh, and then I work part-time, running a solo law practice. I am sure that many of you keep this type of insane schedule too and feel my pain.

Today I got an offer to work steadily with a colleague for about 20 hours a week. While I am very happy for the steady work, I will have to try to fit this into my already bursting schedule. I want to do it all, I NEED to do it all, but, really, somethings got to give. While working part-time for 20 hours a week may be many people's dream (and, believe me, I know I am very lucky to be able to have a part-time, flexible but professional good-paying job), when I start to map it out I just don't know where that 20 hours will come from. I suppose I could stop having any "Me Time" at all (the 5 minutes a week that I have, that is).

It doesn't help that my husband is pointing out this obvious dilemma to me nonstop. How are you going to do it? How are you going to do it? How are you going to do it? I know, I know, I know - I need to figure it out. But I am actually pretty good at the Mommy juggle. And I am interested in doing so many things and don't really feel like choosing. I like variety. I like having it all. But is it really having it all when all the balls are constantly in motion? I need to clone myself...or get a wife.